Be Here

January 14th, 2020

If there is any good in my life right now, any light coming from the holes I have poked in my jar, I have to accept that exactly everything that has happened so far had to happen for that good to exist.

And this is how I can relax my regret and temper my guilt and make the decision to stay on this planet.

Because don’t think for a second that it’s not a decision. I never take for granted that I get to make it and that the choice, ultimately, is an easy and clear one.

Me being here is better than me not being here.

Just like — and I truly, always believe this — you being here is better than you not being here.

I don’t know if anyone has told you that lately, so let me: if you’re a part of my ecosystem, if you’re a planet or moon or distant star in my solar system, then I am happy to tell you that you make my universe a better place.

In fact, my universe would be a different place without you in it.

And the good things I can find in my life — the light drops pooling on the edges of my dark umbrella — they wouldn’t be the same, or possibly even exist without you.

Because everything that has happened had to happen to get us this far. And I would have never have gotten this far without you.

Despite what you did, it doesn’t affect what you do — only where you are now. And you are one second away from the future. Keep — or start — doing the next right thing.

Keep making the choice to be here.

I need you, and I know I’m not the only one.

Published by dennisvogen

I'm me, of course. Or am I?

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