Delusional Resolutions

January 24th, 2022 Have you ever started a day by telling yourself that this is the day you’ll get better, and at the end of it you’re not? If so, then this one’s for you. When I was a mess, I would often have conversations with future me. I would say, “Hey. It’s me. I’mContinue reading “Delusional Resolutions”

My Covid Diary

January 14th, 2022 I just made it through my CDC-recommended quarantine. I think most of the people who have had covid (and talk about it) share their physical symptoms. Because of this one-dimensional barometer, you’ll find other people minimize what it is that happens when you’re infected. By that measure, I had sniffles and coughs.Continue reading “My Covid Diary”

Nothing Around Us Changes

January 12th, 2022 Weirdly enough, I finally got covid, but that’s not what’s inspiring me to write tonight. (Presuming nothing terrible happens to me over the next few days, I’ll probably write about that later.) No, I’ve been quarantined all alone in the bedroom (with occasional visits from my doctor, who is actually my dog),Continue reading “Nothing Around Us Changes”

Circus Wisdom

January 4th, 2022 When I was teased, or made fun of, or laughed at growing up, my dad would tell me to laugh with them. Or, if I could, laugh at myself before they had the chance. That sentiment is terrible for a child. But it’s advice I take more to heart every day IContinue reading “Circus Wisdom”

#artvsartist2021

December 13th, 2021 A lot of my favorite people — my artist friends — have shared their #artvsartist year, and I am nothing if not a wannabe waiting outside the house party, watching my breath freeze in the cold, so here is mine. These posts are also often about gratitude, and I have no shortageContinue reading “#artvsartist2021”

Fantastic Four (years sober)

December 9th, 2021 It’s not my birthday today. But I did begin to exist in the world in a new way. I am four years sober as of right this moment. This will come as no surprise if you know how dramatic I can be, but for a long time I was waiting for theContinue reading “Fantastic Four (years sober)”

Long time no talk, I counted — Holiday Newsletter 2021

November 29th, 2021 Howdy, dear friends, precious family, and mortal enemies. When I added you to this email list, I promised I wouldn’t spam you; it’s been over a full year since I’ve sent you a newsletter (369 days, to be exact), so I’ll be eating a cookie (or sleeve of them) tonight to celebrateContinue reading “Long time no talk, I counted — Holiday Newsletter 2021”

Fast [Food] But Not Fast Enough

November 27th, 2021 Now. I drive past the Burger King. I start crying. Then. I’m sitting in the fake leather booth, my hands under my bottom, feeling the cracks and the holes created from the hundreds of bottoms that have sat here before. The booth is orange or brown or both colors at the sameContinue reading “Fast [Food] But Not Fast Enough”

Nothing so Big

November 19th, 2021 There are days when we go through something that seems bigger than we can keep holding up. On those days, the small things can feel less than trivial. The mundane details of our normal lives are smears, becoming blurs along the tunnel vision we get looking at the massive, inescapable thing. IContinue reading “Nothing so Big”

I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry

November 5th, 2021 An exploration of addiction through my personal experience, evolutionary theories, and Galactus & the Silver Surfer.   “I’m hungry but I’m not hungry.” Before everything, it was a feeling. By now, I’ve heard countless people say this phrase or a variation of it. Before that, I used to think it repeatedly, sayContinue reading “I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry”