Delusional Resolutions

January 24th, 2022 Have you ever started a day by telling yourself that this is the day you’ll get better, and at the end of it you’re not? If so, then this one’s for you. When I was a mess, I would often have conversations with future me. I would say, “Hey. It’s me. I’mContinue reading “Delusional Resolutions”

My Covid Diary

January 14th, 2022 I just made it through my CDC-recommended quarantine. I think most of the people who have had covid (and talk about it) share their physical symptoms. Because of this one-dimensional barometer, you’ll find other people minimize what it is that happens when you’re infected. By that measure, I had sniffles and coughs.Continue reading “My Covid Diary”

Nothing Around Us Changes

January 12th, 2022 Weirdly enough, I finally got covid, but that’s not what’s inspiring me to write tonight. (Presuming nothing terrible happens to me over the next few days, I’ll probably write about that later.) No, I’ve been quarantined all alone in the bedroom (with occasional visits from my doctor, who is actually my dog),Continue reading “Nothing Around Us Changes”

Fantastic Four (years sober)

December 9th, 2021 It’s not my birthday today. But I did begin to exist in the world in a new way. I am four years sober as of right this moment. This will come as no surprise if you know how dramatic I can be, but for a long time I was waiting for theContinue reading “Fantastic Four (years sober)”

I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry

November 5th, 2021 An exploration of addiction through my personal experience, evolutionary theories, and Galactus & the Silver Surfer.   “I’m hungry but I’m not hungry.” Before everything, it was a feeling. By now, I’ve heard countless people say this phrase or a variation of it. Before that, I used to think it repeatedly, sayContinue reading “I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry”

The Temporal Buffet

November 1st, 2021 When you’re paying attention, even the most mundane details can illuminate personal progress. Last weekend, after a day spent doing that business-art thing, some of us went out to a Mongolian grill. I hadn’t been to one in a while, but the premise is simple: fill up a bowl of fresh andContinue reading “The Temporal Buffet”

So What

October 20th, 2021 Almost four years ago, when I started writing about things that people generally don’t talk about on the internet, it was scary. I remember laying in a hospital bed and weighing the pros and cons of sharing these pieces of myself. There was a large part of me that felt like IContinue reading “So What”

The Monster

October 15th, 2021 I wrote this weeks ago, but this has been a difficult one to let go into the world. As of tomorrow, the 16th, my mom has been gone for one whole orbit around the sun. In that year, I’ve told a lot of stories about her and how I feel some daysContinue reading “The Monster”

Dry Ink

October 14th, 2021 Over the past almost four years, I have received hundreds of messages about two big parts of my life: publishing books, and sobriety. The more I thought about it, the more I realized how similar accomplishing those two things are for me. So I made a list of what I’ve done, andContinue reading “Dry Ink”

Skol Post

October 10th, 2021 Today’s win was amazing. Not because it got us into the playoffs, or gave us a championship, but because it reminded us of the one of the best traits inherent in humanity. Hope. We get let down a lot. Most of us have unrealistic expectations. Only the greatest of us have noContinue reading “Skol Post”