December 24th, 2019
Exclamation: used to express agreement or acceptance.
Adjective: (of a person) in a satisfactory physical or mental state.
Once a week, I spend some time with the most caring, compassionate, brilliant, clever and wise people I have ever met. They’ve taught (or re-taught) me almost every good thing I know; they make me want to be a better person and, better than that, they show me how.
Every time we meet, at least one of them says something along these carefully learned lines:
At the end of the day, all any of us wants to be is okay.
It’s one of the simplest truths, and it applies to all.
And I think it’s helpful to remember this time of year.
Because what I want for you is impossible. I want your holiday season to be spectacular; I want your every moment to be a brilliant light that you never forget. I want the absolute best of everything for you; I want you to have all of the friends, all of the family, all of the time in the world to live in. I want you to have the most exceptional things; not just “stuff,” but feelings, and relationships, and jobs, and a sense of purpose and meaning.
Because that’s the peak. That is the highest mountaintop, and that is the furthest star. And it is unrealistic as fuck.
So when I think about it, there’s only one thing I really want for you:
I want you to be okay.
If the holidays are hard for you, I hope that you have something or someone in your life that keeps you okay. If 2019 was a bad year for you, I hope that 2020 is okay. If you’ve been vibrating on a low, slow frequency for as long as you can remember, I hope you hear a song that makes you feel okay.
And I constantly hope the same for myself.
I am always on the razor-thin lip of okay. And that’s not to say I’m not; since I tip-toe the line, I can always peek my head over the side of the glass to see where I am fine.
I dedicate myself to feeling less anxious, less lonely and less worthless daily.
And that’s what I wish for you.
P.S. If you think you can’t feel okay?
Try a synonym. ❤
Agreeable, all right, alright, copacetic, ducky, fine, good, hunky-dory, jake [slang], palatable, satisfactory.