Fantastic Four (years sober)

December 9th, 2021 It’s not my birthday today. But I did begin to exist in the world in a new way. I am four years sober as of right this moment. This will come as no surprise if you know how dramatic I can be, but for a long time I was waiting for theContinue reading “Fantastic Four (years sober)”

it sucks

November 25th, 2021 It sucks, but there is a lot to be thankful for. This is the second round of holidays without my mom, and I am so excited to share that it gets 100% easier and that, after year one, there are no struggles or bad feelings or mornings I wake up crying forContinue reading “it sucks”

Polaris

November 22nd, 2021 Sometimes I think I’m making a mistake. I’ve written a lot about how I think the world would be a much better place if everybody was more honest, in real life and on the internet here. I actively encourage it. But there’s the ugly side of that. There’s the moments that revealContinue reading “Polaris”

Nothing so Big

November 19th, 2021 There are days when we go through something that seems bigger than we can keep holding up. On those days, the small things can feel less than trivial. The mundane details of our normal lives are smears, becoming blurs along the tunnel vision we get looking at the massive, inescapable thing. IContinue reading “Nothing so Big”

I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry

November 5th, 2021 An exploration of addiction through my personal experience, evolutionary theories, and Galactus & the Silver Surfer.   “I’m hungry but I’m not hungry.” Before everything, it was a feeling. By now, I’ve heard countless people say this phrase or a variation of it. Before that, I used to think it repeatedly, sayContinue reading “I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry”

The Temporal Buffet

November 1st, 2021 When you’re paying attention, even the most mundane details can illuminate personal progress. Last weekend, after a day spent doing that business-art thing, some of us went out to a Mongolian grill. I hadn’t been to one in a while, but the premise is simple: fill up a bowl of fresh andContinue reading “The Temporal Buffet”

So What

October 20th, 2021 Almost four years ago, when I started writing about things that people generally don’t talk about on the internet, it was scary. I remember laying in a hospital bed and weighing the pros and cons of sharing these pieces of myself. There was a large part of me that felt like IContinue reading “So What”

The Monster

October 15th, 2021 I wrote this weeks ago, but this has been a difficult one to let go into the world. As of tomorrow, the 16th, my mom has been gone for one whole orbit around the sun. In that year, I’ve told a lot of stories about her and how I feel some daysContinue reading “The Monster”

Them + Us: Special Edition

October 9th, 2021 On April 1st, 2013, I released my first book, Them. It’s a violent, funny, absolutely absurd story featuring mysterious aliens, deeply flawed humans, and buckets of vomit and blood (and a shot of excrement). Exactly a year later, I returned with Us, the second half of the traumatizing tale. In 2021, IContinue reading “Them + Us: Special Edition”

float on

October 8th, 2021 It’s spooky season, so it’s finally appropriate that everything feels so ephemeral to me. Sometimes loss feels like weight, but lately it has felt like nothing at all, smoke that used to be wood that you realize you never could have actually carried forever. That scares me. When I was young, IContinue reading “float on”