March 15th, 2023 Any ride you survive was worth taking; eventually you’ll take one you don’t. If you’re a normal human who does regular person things (jealous!), you probably don’t read everything I post (and if you’re a weirdo who does, okay, I see you, too). So if you missed it: back at the beginningContinue reading “Because It Kills You”
Tag Archives: Trauma
String Theory
February 15th, 2023 I often have to repeat to myself that the world isn’t more tragic; we are just made more aware of all the tragedies. And tragedy becomes a kind of string we wear around our finger. I have extended family who are going through a personal tragedy right now, losing their father, myContinue reading “String Theory”
How Time Got Solid
February 9th, 2023 There is no point to writing on the internet. What does it really matter? What does it accomplish? Does anybody actually need it? Because I love doing things that nobody asked me to do, I write on the internet. I started taking it seriously in 2017, or as serious as I canContinue reading “How Time Got Solid”
All the Wrong and Dark Things
January 31st, 2023 Today is the last day of Origins month, and I sincerely want to thank anybody who’s been reading. A better explanation of why I’m doing this (and why I do anything on the internet at all) is coming tomorrow, the first day of a new month, and a new topic. Going throughContinue reading “All the Wrong and Dark Things”
One Last Thing
December 24th, 2022 Tomorrow is a last thing and this time of year brings up a lot of last things. The last time she made the thing you love. The last time she laughed at one of your jokes, and you laughed at her laugh. The last time you sat next to her at theContinue reading “One Last Thing”
The Language of Darkness
November 25th, 2022 There’s something you feel when someone ends their own life that feels either unnatural or completely understandable. It’s something I’ve explored a lot, in essays like these, and in fictional characters like Liam, in the book Push, and Axis in The Weirdos. I had the realization that I had said unnatural orContinue reading “The Language of Darkness”
I’m Becoming This
November 7th, 2022 “I don’t know if I’m strong; I think I’m just numb.” – Khloe Kardashian Today — and this week, and this year, and the past handful of years — I wonder how many of us have been embodying this Khloe Kardashian quote. I don’t know the difference between strong and numb someContinue reading “I’m Becoming This”
Just Another Day
October 16th, 2022 It’s just another day. It’s football day. My dread is warmer than usual, my anxiety sharper. It’s not just another day. My dad legally divorced the Minnesota Vikings in 1998 over an incident neither he nor millions of other sports fans had any control over. My mom stayed committed to them. ThatContinue reading “Just Another Day”
Groundless
October 14th, 2022 I was going to write about fall today. I had a lot of feelings yesterday and thought of some words I was going to write this morning. I was going to take a stunning photo of an autumn tree. And then it snowed. And what I really wanted to talk about cameContinue reading “Groundless”
The Kind Monster
September 6th, 2022 Starting today, I’m going to be taking the rest of the month off from posting essays. I feel like you and I could use a break from each other, in a good way. I hope you’ll catch up on posts, if that’s your thing, or pick up some of my work andContinue reading “The Kind Monster”
The Den 