The Language of Darkness

November 25th, 2022 There’s something you feel when someone ends their own life that feels either unnatural or completely understandable. It’s something I’ve explored a lot, in essays like these, and in fictional characters like Liam, in the book Push, and Axis in The Weirdos. I had the realization that I had said unnatural orContinue reading “The Language of Darkness”

Kevin Conroy, Batman

November 14th, 2022 Kevin Conroy passed away on November 10th, 2022. For many people, he was known as the voice of Batman. For some of us, he simply was Batman. It’s odd, because last month I started a series of essays about Halloween costumes I’d worn as a kid, and what those characters meant toContinue reading “Kevin Conroy, Batman”

I’m Becoming This

November 7th, 2022 “I don’t know if I’m strong; I think I’m just numb.” – Khloe Kardashian Today — and this week, and this year, and the past handful of years — I wonder how many of us have been embodying this Khloe Kardashian quote. I don’t know the difference between strong and numb someContinue reading “I’m Becoming This”

Leave The Light On

November 1st, 2022 I’ve been reading a lot of pieces lately about whether there is any goodness left in the world. Not just written articles; people I know (and don’t know) are wondering aloud if there is still kindness and empathy and the desire to help left anywhere. While we were out trick or treatingContinue reading “Leave The Light On”

Could I BE More Grateful?

October 28th, 2022 Like the handful of other Americans who still sit down to watch broadcast TV live in the evening, we watched the Matthew Perry interview with Diane Sawyer tonight. I don’t think I can properly express my gratitude for him or my feelings over what he spoke about. It was mostly about addiction,Continue reading “Could I BE More Grateful?”

Just Another Day

October 16th, 2022 It’s just another day. It’s football day. My dread is warmer than usual, my anxiety sharper. It’s not just another day. My dad legally divorced the Minnesota Vikings in 1998 over an incident neither he nor millions of other sports fans had any control over. My mom stayed committed to them. ThatContinue reading “Just Another Day”

Groundless

October 14th, 2022 I was going to write about fall today. I had a lot of feelings yesterday and thought of some words I was going to write this morning. I was going to take a stunning photo of an autumn tree. And then it snowed. And what I really wanted to talk about cameContinue reading “Groundless”

The Kind Monster

September 6th, 2022 Starting today, I’m going to be taking the rest of the month off from posting essays. I feel like you and I could use a break from each other, in a good way. I hope you’ll catch up on posts, if that’s your thing, or pick up some of my work andContinue reading “The Kind Monster”

I Am Not An Illusion

August 24th, 2022 Mystery is an amateur magic show. I get frequently asked why I tell people stuff on the internet. Like, the stuff you shouldn’t really tell people, the stuff people don’t talk about like I think they should, the stuff that is heavy or hard. I do it because I feel like weContinue reading “I Am Not An Illusion”

Not Too Little, Never Too Late

August 19th, 2022 When people get comfortable around me and my sobriety, they start to ask more complicated questions about it. The one they inevitably get to is: “Do you miss anything about drinking?” I do. Of course I do. Too much for a single post. But I want to talk about something that mightContinue reading “Not Too Little, Never Too Late”