My Covid Diary

January 14th, 2022 I just made it through my CDC-recommended quarantine. I think most of the people who have had covid (and talk about it) share their physical symptoms. Because of this one-dimensional barometer, you’ll find other people minimize what it is that happens when you’re infected. By that measure, I had sniffles and coughs.Continue reading “My Covid Diary”

Circus Wisdom

January 4th, 2022 When I was teased, or made fun of, or laughed at growing up, my dad would tell me to laugh with them. Or, if I could, laugh at myself before they had the chance. That sentiment is terrible for a child. But it’s advice I take more to heart every day IContinue reading “Circus Wisdom”

Fantastic Four (years sober)

December 9th, 2021 It’s not my birthday today. But I did begin to exist in the world in a new way. I am four years sober as of right this moment. This will come as no surprise if you know how dramatic I can be, but for a long time I was waiting for theContinue reading “Fantastic Four (years sober)”

Let’s Stay Together

December 4th, 2021 I haven’t been spicy in a while, and I don’t mean to be today. But I want to explore one of those phrases that seems harmless on its surface but is loaded with a level of ignorance and selfishness that I’m not sure its users intend. When it comes to death andContinue reading “Let’s Stay Together”

Fast [Food] But Not Fast Enough

November 27th, 2021 Now. I drive past the Burger King. I start crying. Then. I’m sitting in the fake leather booth, my hands under my bottom, feeling the cracks and the holes created from the hundreds of bottoms that have sat here before. The booth is orange or brown or both colors at the sameContinue reading “Fast [Food] But Not Fast Enough”

it sucks

November 25th, 2021 It sucks, but there is a lot to be thankful for. This is the second round of holidays without my mom, and I am so excited to share that it gets 100% easier and that, after year one, there are no struggles or bad feelings or mornings I wake up crying forContinue reading “it sucks”

Polaris

November 22nd, 2021 Sometimes I think I’m making a mistake. I’ve written a lot about how I think the world would be a much better place if everybody was more honest, in real life and on the internet here. I actively encourage it. But there’s the ugly side of that. There’s the moments that revealContinue reading “Polaris”

Nothing so Big

November 19th, 2021 There are days when we go through something that seems bigger than we can keep holding up. On those days, the small things can feel less than trivial. The mundane details of our normal lives are smears, becoming blurs along the tunnel vision we get looking at the massive, inescapable thing. IContinue reading “Nothing so Big”

I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry

November 5th, 2021 An exploration of addiction through my personal experience, evolutionary theories, and Galactus & the Silver Surfer.   “I’m hungry but I’m not hungry.” Before everything, it was a feeling. By now, I’ve heard countless people say this phrase or a variation of it. Before that, I used to think it repeatedly, sayContinue reading “I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry”

The Loop

November 3rd, 2021 Do you ever feel like you’re in a loop? ?pool a ni er’uoy ekil leef reve uoy oD I hear it a lot. “Every day feels the same.” When a TV show lasts a long time, it tends to turn off viewers for a variety of reasons. Yet, somehow, people are usuallyContinue reading “The Loop”