September 16th, 2024 Some days you look into a telescope and all you can see is the immense, infinite universe, nebula swirling like frosting and stars sparkling like sprinkles; other days all you can focus on is a black hole, consuming its corner of the cosmos. There are typical anniversaries when it comes to lossContinue reading “telescope”
Tag Archives: Family
a little fucking better
July 17th, 2024 I’ve been thinking a lot about my mom today because I’ve been thinking a lot about change. Before she passed I was very anti-change, because she was here and who would want to move on from that? Years ago I was asked to write and sing a chorus for a spoken wordContinue reading “a little fucking better”
Summer ’95
June 10th, 2024 I heard Seal’s “Kiss From A Rose” this morning while running errands and I was taken straight back to the summer of 1995. As I considered my own power, my pleasure, my pain, I daydreamt about what I would be doing then. I had just turned ten years old. I would probablyContinue reading “Summer ’95”
Beholder
May 31st, 2024 Today is my mom’s birthday. There are so many beautiful photos of her and this is one of them. I was young when she woke up one day and half of her face was unresponsive; it was during or shortly after she was pregnant with one of my youngest sisters. For her,Continue reading “Beholder”
May
May 16th, 2024 May used to be my favorite month, and now it’s the hardest. It’s not fair, which is perfect because my dad spent my childhood preparing and then reminding me that life would never be. I was born on the first of May, she was born on the last, and her day —Continue reading “May”
When we meet again in the dark
May 1st, 2024 It’s natural to reflect on your birthday. It’s natural to daydream about your earliest moments, lying on coarse carpet, following the sunlight as it sings through the tiny glass prism your mom hung in the window, leaving stains of every color in the palm of your hand; it’s natural to anxiously dwellContinue reading “When we meet again in the dark”
Lefse
December 23rd, 2023 No matter where I turn, I can’t escape the refrain, delivered with a deep sigh: “It doesn’t feel like Christmas this year.” I try to empathize with the observer; I attempt to comfort them by telling them that it’s just the weather. It’s the rain. It’s the lack of snow. It’s theContinue reading “Lefse”
Detach w/ Love
November 21st, 2023 It’s hard to keep loving someone who continually disappoints you and perpetually hurts you, no matter how deeply you love them. I wasn’t sure when to write this essay, but the holidays are here, and it’s that time of year so many of us are most disappointed and hurt. Early on inContinue reading “Detach w/ Love”
3
October 16th, 2023 Three years ago today, my mom decided to go on a forever trip. Due to her terribly dark sense of humor, she didn’t send a text to let me know, or even say good bye. The good news, though, is that after going through these thousand days or so, I don’t evenContinue reading “3”
Theia: Bittersweet Symphony
September 10th, 2023 I cried a lot for Theia. Like, an obnoxious amount. I always tell people that if you want someone to feel something in your art, you should feel that way while you’re making it. And I do. Arguably, too much. Look, if you don’t want to feel sad today, I recommend maybeContinue reading “Theia: Bittersweet Symphony”
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