Nothing Around Us Changes

January 12th, 2022 Weirdly enough, I finally got covid, but that’s not what’s inspiring me to write tonight. (Presuming nothing terrible happens to me over the next few days, I’ll probably write about that later.) No, I’ve been quarantined all alone in the bedroom (with occasional visits from my doctor, who is actually my dog),Continue reading “Nothing Around Us Changes”

Circus Wisdom

January 4th, 2022 When I was teased, or made fun of, or laughed at growing up, my dad would tell me to laugh with them. Or, if I could, laugh at myself before they had the chance. That sentiment is terrible for a child. But it’s advice I take more to heart every day IContinue reading “Circus Wisdom”

Don’t worry about the bacon.

December 24th, 2021 I want to tell you a story about bacon. Last night, we ordered a chicken bacon artichoke pizza to bake at home. When we opened it, there was no bacon on it. I didn’t call them to say anything. I ate the pizza and I was grateful. Now, I feel like evenContinue reading “Don’t worry about the bacon.”

Happy 15 to Love & Fear

December 10th, 2021 Fifteen years ago, in September, I released my second album, “Love & Fear.” I remember the beginning of 2020. (It was a very long time ago. I would understand if you couldn’t think back so far.) I knew that the 15th anniversaries of all three of my Next Step albums were goingContinue reading “Happy 15 to Love & Fear”

Fantastic Four (years sober)

December 9th, 2021 It’s not my birthday today. But I did begin to exist in the world in a new way. I am four years sober as of right this moment. This will come as no surprise if you know how dramatic I can be, but for a long time I was waiting for theContinue reading “Fantastic Four (years sober)”

So Be Good

December 5th, 2021 Santa came into work today. He just showed up. He stopped by every table. He talked to every kid. He took a photo with anyone who asked. He carried sacred sleigh bells. I didn’t call him. No one did. He was there, and then he wasn’t. It was just really nice toContinue reading “So Be Good”

Let’s Stay Together

December 4th, 2021 I haven’t been spicy in a while, and I don’t mean to be today. But I want to explore one of those phrases that seems harmless on its surface but is loaded with a level of ignorance and selfishness that I’m not sure its users intend. When it comes to death andContinue reading “Let’s Stay Together”

Particles R Rad

December 2nd, 2021 Particles are amazing. The particles that make up you are the same particles that make up dogs and forks and books and cars and trees. I think humans prefer labeled boxes (which are also made up of the same particles) so we don’t think about that much. If you want, you canContinue reading “Particles R Rad”

Fast [Food] But Not Fast Enough

November 27th, 2021 Now. I drive past the Burger King. I start crying. Then. I’m sitting in the fake leather booth, my hands under my bottom, feeling the cracks and the holes created from the hundreds of bottoms that have sat here before. The booth is orange or brown or both colors at the sameContinue reading “Fast [Food] But Not Fast Enough”

it sucks

November 25th, 2021 It sucks, but there is a lot to be thankful for. This is the second round of holidays without my mom, and I am so excited to share that it gets 100% easier and that, after year one, there are no struggles or bad feelings or mornings I wake up crying forContinue reading “it sucks”