buoy

September 17th, 2021 I was trying to describe how it can feel to open up to someone tonight and it felt oddly comforting to find the words and say them. It was about why someone who is hurting may not reach out to another person who is hurting, too, but might rather seek to speakContinue reading “buoy”

Dark Dreams

September 10th, 2021 “I know this sounds like a happy, impossibly perfect ending, but it’s not. I have to work really hard for this. It’s not easy to talk. It’s not easy to ask for help. It’s not easy to accept that others want to help. Like cancer, there is always the fear that itContinue reading “Dark Dreams”

It Should (Not) Have Been Me

September 9th, 2021 There can be an odd guilt with grief that, if understood, can actually be a good thing. I often talk about all these tools I’ve learned as an adult, sober person, but I usually refer to them in the abstract. One of the specific tools I have to take out of theContinue reading “It Should (Not) Have Been Me”

CODA Review

August 30th, 2021 It is common to look at art and, no matter how different it is from you, find something in common. It is rare to find art that is made for the very specific life that you’ve lived. I do not need a new streaming service, but I’d been eyeing Apple TV+ forContinue reading “CODA Review”

Crocodile Fears

August 22nd, 2021 There was this game we used to play with a plastic crocodile when I was a kid. I’m not sure if our role was as dentist or some sadistic torturer (I mean, why would any animal need ALL its teeth removed?), but to take a turn would require you to choose andContinue reading “Crocodile Fears”

More Than I Deserve

August 10th, 2021 I’ve mostly learned the ways to curb, deal with or soothe those devastating feelings of crushing loneliness I get when I think about my mom. Mostly. Sometimes something said will stick in my ribs, or hurt like chewed tinfoil in my head. With those, too, I can usually use my tools toContinue reading “More Than I Deserve”

i love u all so much

July 22nd, 2021 Oh, m’gosh. First things first: my deepest, sincerest, most saccharine gratitude to every single wonderful soul who attended the Book(s) Release Party today, whether you showed up over an hour early, or stayed with me until the very end (and maybe even a few minutes past that). I’ve said it before, andContinue reading “i love u all so much”

I Want To Push You Around

July 19th, 2021 In just about 24 hours, Push comes to shove and will be released into the wild. I wanted to talk about my 7th book a little (and thank every single person who has been here since my 1st, too). I’ll see you soon at Issues Needed on July 21st starting at 5Continue reading “I Want To Push You Around”

Heartbreak Weather

July 15th, 2021 I’m still on the Old Chicago email list. For more than a few months, when I’d open one, I would feel heartbreak for what I lost. After a while, though, I would start to feel a new kind of heartbreak; I’d think of all the things I would have never experienced ifContinue reading “Heartbreak Weather”

Visible At Night

July 5th, 2021 Whenever I felt invisible, my mom used to remind me I wasn’t. That sounds stupid to say, but it’s true, and now on days when I feel invisible sometimes I worry I won’t be found by anybody. It is very easy to look up at the sky and be impressed by aContinue reading “Visible At Night”