May 31st, 2023 The older I get, the less I try to use the word “hate,” but today is the worst day of the year, and I hate it. It’s my mom’s birthday, which is worse than her death day, because that day was something that happened and is done, while her birthday is aboutContinue reading “61”
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Maybe I’m Wrong
March 25th, 2023 This is an essay about grief and, out of respect, I have to preface it with a spoiler warning for John Wick 4. It’s only a line of dialogue, but it’s what got me thinking about this in the first place, and if you don’t want a frame of the new filmContinue reading “Maybe I’m Wrong”
How Time Got Solid
February 9th, 2023 There is no point to writing on the internet. What does it really matter? What does it accomplish? Does anybody actually need it? Because I love doing things that nobody asked me to do, I write on the internet. I started taking it seriously in 2017, or as serious as I canContinue reading “How Time Got Solid”
All the Wrong and Dark Things
January 31st, 2023 Today is the last day of Origins month, and I sincerely want to thank anybody who’s been reading. A better explanation of why I’m doing this (and why I do anything on the internet at all) is coming tomorrow, the first day of a new month, and a new topic. Going throughContinue reading “All the Wrong and Dark Things”
Splish Splash
January 6th, 2023 I grew up taking baths. This is a weird way to start an essay, but I’m going somewhere with it. Our first house in Minneapolis had a tub (pictured here). The A-frame in East Bethel had a tub (which was disgusting, like the rest of the place). And when we moved toContinue reading “Splish Splash”
Take A Picture
December 30th, 2022 I can’t get over this photo. It might be my favorite one of her. So, we made it? We survived another year? Survival is subjective, and not everyone makes it out alive, including the live ones. Parts of us we used to find essential rust or fade away; we discover new partsContinue reading “Take A Picture”
One Last Thing
December 24th, 2022 Tomorrow is a last thing and this time of year brings up a lot of last things. The last time she made the thing you love. The last time she laughed at one of your jokes, and you laughed at her laugh. The last time you sat next to her at theContinue reading “One Last Thing”
The Characters Who Inspired Me, Part 2
October 20th, 2022 For the second installment of my Halloween series, let’s take a closer look at Steven Quincy Urkel. First things first: can we just give my mom a massive round of applause for acknowledging that her white boy loved Steve Urkel but also understood that he did not need to look EXACTLY likeContinue reading “The Characters Who Inspired Me, Part 2”
The Characters That Inspired Me, Part 1
October 17th, 2022 On hard days, people will remind you to think of the good memories, and my pockets are full of those. A lot of those memories revolve around Halloween. My mom loved to see what characters inspired me, and it inspired her own creativity every year when I inevitably asked her to craftContinue reading “The Characters That Inspired Me, Part 1”
Just Another Day
October 16th, 2022 It’s just another day. It’s football day. My dread is warmer than usual, my anxiety sharper. It’s not just another day. My dad legally divorced the Minnesota Vikings in 1998 over an incident neither he nor millions of other sports fans had any control over. My mom stayed committed to them. ThatContinue reading “Just Another Day”
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