Good Time

May 1st, 2022 It’s my birthday today. I put on the calendar “write something heart-wrenching, soul-baring, way too much, you know, like you used to” and who am I to argue with the calendar? Living with the problem of addiction means I will always be hungry for more. This remains true in the case ofContinue reading “Good Time”

Second Act

April 13th, 2022 I did the math. If I live as long as my mom did, I already hit middle age at 29. I think about hills. What it’s like to get to the top of one and then roll, fantastically, without fear, down the other side. It’s what I should be doing. Hands upContinue reading “Second Act”

Fake’s Not Real

April 9th, 2022 As disclaimers go, this is a weird one: representation matters. I believe that to my core. I want to make that clear before I start. So what kind of something am I starting? I guess we’ll see. When we’re kids, we are generally taught the difference between real and fake. The newsContinue reading “Fake’s Not Real”

i made this for your fridge

March 10th, 2022 I’m a firm believer that when I have feelings while I’m creating something that it will hold those feelings and then give them to the person who experiences the art. From my personal interactions, this seems to be true. I’ve had people reach out after reading something and say, “When I gotContinue reading “i made this for your fridge”

An Ode to the Rescue Rangers

February 16th, 2022 An Ode to the Rescue Rangers If you’re following along, you may have seen me lose my mind over the new Chip ‘n Dale Rescue Rangers trailer yesterday. In fact, I have been abnormally salivating since the project was first announced. The original series was one of my absolute favorites growing up.Continue reading “An Ode to the Rescue Rangers”

A Ton of Feathers

January 28th, 2022 When people leave you, they leave the things you can’t ask them, too. Sometimes those mysteries are big and heavy and revelatory. Sometimes they’re not. But they take up space in your mind just the same. I saw a lady in a coat today, in the parking lot before we opened ourContinue reading “A Ton of Feathers”

Circus Wisdom

January 4th, 2022 When I was teased, or made fun of, or laughed at growing up, my dad would tell me to laugh with them. Or, if I could, laugh at myself before they had the chance. That sentiment is terrible for a child. But it’s advice I take more to heart every day IContinue reading “Circus Wisdom”

Fast [Food] But Not Fast Enough

November 27th, 2021 Now. I drive past the Burger King. I start crying. Then. I’m sitting in the fake leather booth, my hands under my bottom, feeling the cracks and the holes created from the hundreds of bottoms that have sat here before. The booth is orange or brown or both colors at the sameContinue reading “Fast [Food] But Not Fast Enough”

it sucks

November 25th, 2021 It sucks, but there is a lot to be thankful for. This is the second round of holidays without my mom, and I am so excited to share that it gets 100% easier and that, after year one, there are no struggles or bad feelings or mornings I wake up crying forContinue reading “it sucks”