Panic at the Distrust

January 23rd, 2023 I’ve had some real revelations this week on my issues with trust. Growing up, I was generally untrusting. I struggled to articulate why. I had clear reasons: bad things happened to me. Bad things happened to people I loved. People talked about bad things other people did to them or, still, otherContinue reading “Panic at the Distrust”

Good Grief

January 10th, 2023 Well… my car got stolen today. Every time I see someone post about a hard time, I imagine what I would do in their shoes. I do it even more when I think about my sobriety; I have to ask myself, “Would I stay sober through that?” I often questioned who IContinue reading “Good Grief”

V

December 9th, 2022 You were this close to living in a Dennis-less world. That’s one of the parts of my past we don’t talk much about. I’m not saying it would have been a better place or worse place, but it definitely would have been a different one. Today marks five years since I tookContinue reading “V”

Eyes on the Ball

November 30th, 2022 One of the most impossible and necessary human properties we can hold is the ability to live in and appreciate any given moment. My friend Steven and I are obsessed with a television show called Westworld. This year, for its fourth season, we even found time to get together every few weeksContinue reading “Eyes on the Ball”

Grace

November 23rd, 2022 I love this time of year, because I live for times when light and dark are mutually strongest. The holidays can be f—ing tough. Talking to others around a table, especially those who see the world differently than you do, can be extremely sensitive and difficult. Kirsten Powers on Substack sent theContinue reading “Grace”

Could I BE More Grateful?

October 28th, 2022 Like the handful of other Americans who still sit down to watch broadcast TV live in the evening, we watched the Matthew Perry interview with Diane Sawyer tonight. I don’t think I can properly express my gratitude for him or my feelings over what he spoke about. It was mostly about addiction,Continue reading “Could I BE More Grateful?”

Trauma Like Candy

August 25th, 2022 When I was growing up, my dad took us camping a lot. That meant a lot of s’mores, mosquito bites, boat rides, sunburns, worms pierced with hooks, hammocks, and campfires. On one particular trip, during elementary school break, I had become fascinated with the fire pit on the grounds. It was madeContinue reading “Trauma Like Candy”

The Best of the Worst

August 1st, 2022 This is your semi-annual reminder that my posts are personal opinions made by a very, very flawed person with little-to-no common sense. It can be hard for us, especially once we designate something or someone as “good” or “bad,” to remember that everything is actually somewhere in the middle. This feels especiallyContinue reading “The Best of the Worst”

Logical Being

July 19th, 2022 Over the years, a topic that comes up frequently when I’m talking to people about creativity is perfectionism. A lot of people struggle with it. Many of them attribute their need to be perfect as the reason they don’t finish any projects. Then they look at my table full of words andContinue reading “Logical Being”

a squirrel, a reality star, and my addiction

July 14th, 2022 If you know me even a little, you know that I think pop culture is important, and that I use it to make sense of our existence. The following is an ambitious use of popular culture to explain behavior that is not popular at all, but I really hope you’ll follow. I’veContinue reading “a squirrel, a reality star, and my addiction”