Breaking Bad

April 20th, 2021 This morning I was cleaning out my phone (it feels five pounds lighter without all those Baby Yoda memes [remember Baby Yoda memes?!]) when I came across something that I obviously saved for a reason. It reads: “If you’re ever scared that you’re a bad person, remember that bad people don’t careContinue reading “Breaking Bad”

Of a Feather

April 8th, 2021 This morning at work, I saw this bird. Well, no, I didn’t initially see it. I heard it. It was repeatedly trying to break its way into the restaurant, flying again and again against the windows and doors, which I found to be bizarre but fascinating. I took this photo and IContinue reading “Of a Feather”

Have Mercy

March 22nd, 2021 Jesus did me a solid today. All over the planet, people are having difficult conversations about the state of our world. My family is no exception. My dad and I had a discussion this morning that typified the idea of “heated”: it started by boiling over, then simmered as we discussed factualContinue reading “Have Mercy”

Famous Last Blurbs

March 15th, 2021 This is going to be the last substantial post I make for a while, because this is the last post that’s going to make it in the book. It’s weird because some of you will read these words on a screen and some of you will read them on paper, and thisContinue reading “Famous Last Blurbs”

Found in Space

March 9th, 2021 More and more lately, I find myself in space. I’ve been feeling the everyday plaque of stress and anxiety building up faster and more frequently; I know it’s due to a complex constellation of reasons. Not that understanding it helps. To find myself out, I have to place myself outside. Way outside.Continue reading “Found in Space”

Two Become One

March 5th, 2021 What if you’re not really a person? What if you’re actually just two concepts? Two ideas with frequently oppositional magnetic poles. Imagine two circles. I label one “Your Ideal Self,” and the other “Your Actual Self.” Now imagine that from birth to death, all you do is push and pull these twoContinue reading “Two Become One”

Multiversal Recalibration

February 26th, 2021 We have this thing where we think we’re the center until we can see the whole. A few months after my mom died, I got three plastic tubs full of stuff from the time I was born until the late 2000’s. She kept a lot of me and for that I’ll beContinue reading “Multiversal Recalibration”

Permission to Breathe

February 23rd, 2021 Despite everything, there is something magical about that first inhale of near-spring air after a seemingly infinite span of bitter cold. I’m not a person who believes that suffering makes a human better. I think that I will always struggle to varying degrees from the pain that I’ve been through and theContinue reading “Permission to Breathe”

3 Simple Rules For Talking To God

February 16th, 2021 The lectures of William James have probably affected my life more than anything I have ever read. His pre-1900 thoughts on religion — the ideas of religion, the science of religion — have had an irreversible effect on how I see the world, secular or otherwise. In one of my favorite sections,Continue reading “3 Simple Rules For Talking To God”

The Enemy of my Enemy is Me

February 1st, 2021 “To fight the empire is to be infected by its derangement . . . Whoever defeats part of the empire becomes the empire; it proliferates like a virus . . . Thereby it becomes its enemies.” – Phillip K. Dick I didn’t know how it phrase it as eloquently as Dick, butContinue reading “The Enemy of my Enemy is Me”