October 3rd, 2019 Will Smith and I are on the same wavelength. I had been thinking about writing a post about the difference between fault and responsibility lately, and then I saw a video of his yesterday in which he perfectly describes what I was going to say. That smug ass. To sum it up:Continue reading “Great Power”
Tag Archives: Mental Health
Extremes
August 20th, 2019 I am a person born of extremes. For most of my life, I was always the best, or I was the worst. The smartest person in the room, or so dumb I could feel everybody staring. The top of the heap, or the bottom of a garbage fire. I was perpetually hotterContinue reading “Extremes”
Sculpture/Garden
July 23rd, 2019 When asked how he created his sculptural masterpiece David, Michelangelo said — and I’m paraphrasing, because I wasn’t there — that essentially David was always inside that block of marble, and he just had to chip away the parts that weren’t him. What he actually said was this: “Every block of stoneContinue reading “Sculpture/Garden”
One More Day
July 9th, 2019 My only goal is to put one more good day between me and the person I used to be. This may sound brutal and typically too honest from me, but sometimes I really understand why Bradley Cooper killed himself at the end of A Star Is Born. To wake up every dayContinue reading “One More Day”
The New Normal
June 28th, 2019 What is normal? I think a better question is: what is normalized, and what should or shouldn’t be? Without even realizing it, a lot of us normalize behaviors in how we interact with people and how we present ourselves online. I was talking to a friend yesterday, and it made me thinkContinue reading “The New Normal”
A Meditation On Worry
June 25th, 2019 I heard a wonderful concept today: if you can worry, then you can meditate, because worrying is just meditating about all the wrong things. Hell, yeah, it is. Instead of finding my inner peace and shit, I repeat things like, “I am such an awkward loser” in my head until I believeContinue reading “A Meditation On Worry”
Damage/Control
April 3rd, 2019 “All art is a kind of confession, more or less oblique. All artists, if they are to survive, are forced, at last, to tell the whole story; to vomit the anguish up.” – James Baldwin Since the anniversary of Them and Us on Monday, I’ve been rereading my work. There are manyContinue reading “Damage/Control”
When Do The Bad Thoughts Stop?
March 19th, 2019 As a recovered/forever recovering person, I think the question I get asked the most is: “So when do the bad feelings and thoughts stop?” I avoid this question. But I think, in the spirit of true transparency, I should answer it, and as honestly as I can: they don’t. I still haveContinue reading “When Do The Bad Thoughts Stop?”
Fifteen Months
March 9th, 2019 For those of you at home keeping score, today I completed 15 months of sobriety. To share how I’ve been progressing, I Googled “15 months” and all of these things accurately describe me and where I’m at: • Walking. Your 15-month-old is probably taking at least a few steps on her own.Continue reading “Fifteen Months”
What Doesn’t Kill You
March 7th, 2019 Why is “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” such a commonly used phrase? I know some of the greats use it (I’m looking at you, Kelly Clarkson), but it is inherently false. What doesn’t kill you rarely makes you stronger. What doesn’t kill you can harm you, hurt you, cut you,Continue reading “What Doesn’t Kill You”
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