The Monster

October 15th, 2021 I wrote this weeks ago, but this has been a difficult one to let go into the world. As of tomorrow, the 16th, my mom has been gone for one whole orbit around the sun. In that year, I’ve told a lot of stories about her and how I feel some daysContinue reading “The Monster”

float on

October 8th, 2021 It’s spooky season, so it’s finally appropriate that everything feels so ephemeral to me. Sometimes loss feels like weight, but lately it has felt like nothing at all, smoke that used to be wood that you realize you never could have actually carried forever. That scares me. When I was young, IContinue reading “float on”

Softer Ways

October 7th, 2020 It’s rough out there. I just wanted to share some affirmations with you that help me when I remember to stop, take a breath, and think about them. Which I wish I did more, but it’s really rough out there, and I’m spreading myself as thin as I can, trying to keepContinue reading “Softer Ways”

Pre-Show Jitters

October 1st, 2021 Tomorrow is the first day of Twin Cities Con. And I’m anxious. I wrote about anxiety earlier this week, and I thought I’d follow those thoughts up with these feelings I’m having while I’m in the moment. Every single time an event like this comes along, I’m filled like an over-stuffed donutContinue reading “Pre-Show Jitters”

Something > Nothing

September 28th, 2021 Someone close to me shared a video of a TED Talk about anxiety yesterday morning. I am nothing if not consistently anxious; if anxiety were an electrical current, I am always at a level where you would receive a static shock if you tapped on my shoulder. Beyond describing the different formsContinue reading “Something > Nothing”

Ain’t That Some Sh

September 15th, 2021 I had to walk to school, and home from school, throughout elementary school and high school (and quite a few middle school days, too). On crisp, awakening fall days, like today, or breezy, renewing spring days, those walks contain some of my favorite memories, the kind they try to recreate in moviesContinue reading “Ain’t That Some Sh”

Dark Dreams

September 10th, 2021 “I know this sounds like a happy, impossibly perfect ending, but it’s not. I have to work really hard for this. It’s not easy to talk. It’s not easy to ask for help. It’s not easy to accept that others want to help. Like cancer, there is always the fear that itContinue reading “Dark Dreams”

If You Like The Way You Look That Much Then Baby You Should Go Forgive Yourself

September 3rd, 2021 I used to think I understood the phrase “forgive but don’t forget” but now I’m not so sure. Because how can something be forgiven if it can and will be brought up at any time? This isn’t a simple topic but I’ve been thinking about it a lot so here I am,Continue reading “If You Like The Way You Look That Much Then Baby You Should Go Forgive Yourself”

Crocodile Fears

August 22nd, 2021 There was this game we used to play with a plastic crocodile when I was a kid. I’m not sure if our role was as dentist or some sadistic torturer (I mean, why would any animal need ALL its teeth removed?), but to take a turn would require you to choose andContinue reading “Crocodile Fears”

A Million Tiny Balls

August 19th, 2021 I’ve been seeing a lot of people lately sharing insights about how we should be gentle with ourselves. That the phrase “unprecedented times” has never applied to more unprecedented times. That the modern world has pushed, pulled, squished and smooshed us in every emotional and psychological way possible. I couldn’t agree more.Continue reading “A Million Tiny Balls”