Solid State

January 29th, 2021 People love to say a person “passed before their time.” What few like to admit is that every person dies exactly when they were going to. Everybody gets the same amount: exactly one life. Time is a solid state. From the beginning of time to the end, you can pick it upContinue reading “Solid State”

You’re Going To Make It After All

January 18th, 2021 You would think that because we’re not prehistoric people fighting for our daily survival that we wouldn’t be so stressed out. But what humans did was change the definition of survival itself. It is no longer just having shelter and something to eat and not dying. It’s having a home that isn’tContinue reading “You’re Going To Make It After All”

falling asleep behind the wheel

January 16th, 2021 Highway hypnosis is the phenomenon of daydreaming so profoundly that you find yourself at the destination of a journey without being able to remember how you got there. It’s called that because it usually happens behind the wheel. I never thought that my grief would sometimes manifest itself in this way. Often,Continue reading “falling asleep behind the wheel”

Forgive & I’ll Live

January 10th, 2021 Somebody on the internet set me off tonight. Someone I love said, “You’re a writer. You should be better than the words that you’re saying right now.” She’s right. I can not, no matter how hard I try, ever understand people who live to set fire to the world, and who intentionallyContinue reading “Forgive & I’ll Live”

WAVES

January 8th, 2021 I played cribbage with my dad today. I asked him how he was doing, and the sign he did with his hand was a gentle current, like this photo of a sound wave, representing that he was in a constant state of feeling up and down. Our universe is made of vibrations;Continue reading “WAVES”

Come On (Up or) Down

January 7th, 2021 I’m about to get that kind of honest where it’s hard to look a person in the eyes after. If that sounds like your idea of a good time, slide into this booth next to me and let’s talk. With everything that’s happened over the past year, and especially after losing myContinue reading “Come On (Up or) Down”

Land of the

January 6th, 2021 I’ve been real good at staying apolitical as of late, but I feel like I’ve lost a little of my punk rock attitude and we’ve all been getting along too well. So let’s get to it, friends! What is happening in Washington right now is just about as anti-American and anti-democratic (asContinue reading “Land of the”

2020: A Lesson, A Curriculum, An Education

December 31st, 2020 It is fair to say that this year sucked. It is damn fair. And it is a truth that we will have wasted our time if we decide to learn nothing from it. So, with that in mind, here is some of what I learned. – I learned not only is tomorrowContinue reading “2020: A Lesson, A Curriculum, An Education”

Hey, Jealousy

December 11th, 2020 I’ve been thinking about the green-eyed monster lately. (I’m talking about jealousy, not the Hulk, but I also think about the Hulk often.) I’ve been a jealous person for most of my life. A lot of what I created in my twenties came from the twin intertwining roots of jealousy and control.Continue reading “Hey, Jealousy”

Subconscious Wormhole

December 3rd, 2020 May 1st, 1985. I’m born. I am my parents’ first child, as far as I know. September 16th, 2020. I get a phone call from my sister. My mom is in the hospital due to extreme stomach pain. Within a few days, we learn she has cancer. We are optimistic and readyContinue reading “Subconscious Wormhole”