December 16th, 2025 I may have mentioned this once or twice before but I am a very anxious person. I am a tragically empathetic sponge (which my drinking used to magically squeeze) and a standard-issue artist; I feel too much and when the world feels like too much my brain crosses streets like a squirrel.Continue reading “Cat Mom”
Tag Archives: Grief
Just Can’t
October 16th, 2025 It’s been five whole years today. I just can’t. I’m doing totally normal things to cope: keeping myself so entirely busy with school and clubs and work and my writing career that I see “burnt out” tiny in my rear view mirror, now that I’m several towns past. When we lose someone,Continue reading “Just Can’t”
A Little Less Alone
August 28th, 2025 I live in Minnesota, so the morning after a horrific tragedy I wasn’t surprised to open social media and see so much ugly. (A lot of this ugly coming from so-called Christians, who have spent the last decade showing all of us, including their Jesus, who they really are and what theyContinue reading “A Little Less Alone”
Everything I Ever Was
August 12th, 2025 Whenever I’m feeling spicy (and I’ve been very spicy this week [don’t act like you didn’t notice]), my ongoing recovery reminds me to reflect on myself and figure out why. Sometimes it’s a complex web of things, anxiety and doubt and my schedule and projects and the state of the world, butContinue reading “Everything I Ever Was”
Darkroom
May 31st, 2025 I’ve been wondering why life has felt so chaotic and fast lately and then realized I wasn’t writing much of it down. Not here. I haven’t been processing correctly. Instead of developing my memories and experiences in a quiet darkroom, investigating their details and exploring their mysteries as they slowly materialize, I’veContinue reading “Darkroom”
Four Years / Natural
October 16th, 2024 If you feel a little lonely, you’re not alone in that, and it’s natural to feel. My mom made sure I knew that. She’s been gone four years today. My dad got married last weekend. It was a beautiful day. I was the minister of their wedding. I got a lot ofContinue reading “Four Years / Natural”
telescope
September 16th, 2024 Some days you look into a telescope and all you can see is the immense, infinite universe, nebula swirling like frosting and stars sparkling like sprinkles; other days all you can focus on is a black hole, consuming its corner of the cosmos. There are typical anniversaries when it comes to lossContinue reading “telescope”
a little fucking better
July 17th, 2024 I’ve been thinking a lot about my mom today because I’ve been thinking a lot about change. Before she passed I was very anti-change, because she was here and who would want to move on from that? Years ago I was asked to write and sing a chorus for a spoken wordContinue reading “a little fucking better”
Beholder
May 31st, 2024 Today is my mom’s birthday. There are so many beautiful photos of her and this is one of them. I was young when she woke up one day and half of her face was unresponsive; it was during or shortly after she was pregnant with one of my youngest sisters. For her,Continue reading “Beholder”
May
May 16th, 2024 May used to be my favorite month, and now it’s the hardest. It’s not fair, which is perfect because my dad spent my childhood preparing and then reminding me that life would never be. I was born on the first of May, she was born on the last, and her day —Continue reading “May”
The Den 