March 24th, 2020 The word “duly” means importantly. And I think it’s important that we remember or realize that people are made up of “and”s. Not blacks and whites and “or”s, but a spectrum of color, and the grays that exist between them. I spent a lot of time thinking about this post. I wantContinue reading “&”
Tag Archives: Recovery
Look
March 10th, 2020 When you’re gripped by a dark thing, common wisdom dictates that you should take a look in the mirror. Stare into the eyes of who you are and what you’ve become to reach an mutual understanding. For me, the recognition and clarity never came through a mirror. It comes through photographs. PicturesContinue reading “Look”
Home & Garden
February 19th, 2020 The other night over dinner, we were having a conversation that led into how I uncomfortably deal with specific kinds of attention. It’s something that I have thought about for years, but had never really put into words until now. When I quit drinking in 2017, I quickly lost somewhere between twentyContinue reading “Home & Garden”
Don’t Make Me Sing
February 17th, 2020 Every time I see a show, I’m reminded that I used to make music, and that I miss it sometimes. If you don’t know, I started making music as The Next Step back in 2003. I started with EPs and sporadic song releases, until I released my first full-length, “Something Old, SomethingContinue reading “Don’t Make Me Sing”
Waterwatereverywhere
January 31st, 2020 I see clouds. A lot of them. I see them literally; people keep telling me the reason January has felt so long is because we haven’t seen the sun. And I see other kinds of clouds, too; a news story on the rise of suicides last night, more and more people inContinue reading “Waterwatereverywhere”
Be Here
January 14th, 2020 If there is any good in my life right now, any light coming from the holes I have poked in my jar, I have to accept that exactly everything that has happened so far had to happen for that good to exist. And this is how I can relax my regret andContinue reading “Be Here”
Break/Character
December 19th, 2019 “That was so out of character.” I think about character a lot. Maybe it’s because I’m a writer, maybe it’s because I’m a human who is always changing, but often, and usually while I’m lost in thought, drinking my coffee quickly because it’s the perfect temperature, I think about the things thatContinue reading “Break/Character”
Two Years
December 9th, 2019 Two years. It’s been two years today since I had my last drink. Fun fact: that last drink was a small bottle of Sauvignon Blanc that I had sitting in my trunk; it was the last bottle of booze I had left. I drank it so fast I only tasted it afterword,Continue reading “Two Years”
Believe In Me Like I Believe In You
December 5th, 2019 What would you do if a complete stranger walked up to you and told you where you’re going to be two years from now? He’s not guessing. He knows. He tells you that two years from now, you will be happier. He tells you that sights are going to be brighter, tastesContinue reading “Believe In Me Like I Believe In You”
Letting Go
November 19th, 2019 Last week, I was feeling down. One chilly afternoon I was listening to some of my friends speak from the heart, and one of them said something that somehow explained and helped me understand it. He said, “Now when I get up in the morning, I just have to remind myself andContinue reading “Letting Go”
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