Save Me

October 21st, 2019 You can’t save everyone. And, some days, it feels like you can’t save anyone. When you make it to the other side of certain hardships or experiences, you find yourself wanting to share how you did it in the hopes that you can help another human. That maybe you can prevent aContinue reading “Save Me”

Open Line

October 10th, 2019 Bad vibes in Minnesota right now. But I see good vibes online right now; post after post about mental health awareness, and the normalization of this kind of discussion is something I am passionately for. In fact: it deeply informs my work today. Here is my pitch for The Weirdos: this isContinue reading “Open Line”

Great Power

October 3rd, 2019 Will Smith and I are on the same wavelength. I had been thinking about writing a post about the difference between fault and responsibility lately, and then I saw a video of his yesterday in which he perfectly describes what I was going to say. That smug ass. To sum it up:Continue reading “Great Power”

Extremes

August 20th, 2019 I am a person born of extremes. For most of my life, I was always the best, or I was the worst. The smartest person in the room, or so dumb I could feel everybody staring. The top of the heap, or the bottom of a garbage fire. I was perpetually hotterContinue reading “Extremes”

Sculpture/Garden

July 23rd, 2019 When asked how he created his sculptural masterpiece David, Michelangelo said — and I’m paraphrasing, because I wasn’t there — that essentially David was always inside that block of marble, and he just had to chip away the parts that weren’t him. What he actually said was this: “Every block of stoneContinue reading “Sculpture/Garden”

One More Day

July 9th, 2019 My only goal is to put one more good day between me and the person I used to be. This may sound brutal and typically too honest from me, but sometimes I really understand why Bradley Cooper killed himself at the end of A Star Is Born. To wake up every dayContinue reading “One More Day”

The New Normal

June 28th, 2019 What is normal? I think a better question is: what is normalized, and what should or shouldn’t be? Without even realizing it, a lot of us normalize behaviors in how we interact with people and how we present ourselves online. I was talking to a friend yesterday, and it made me thinkContinue reading “The New Normal”

A Meditation On Worry

June 25th, 2019 I heard a wonderful concept today: if you can worry, then you can meditate, because worrying is just meditating about all the wrong things. Hell, yeah, it is. Instead of finding my inner peace and shit, I repeat things like, “I am such an awkward loser” in my head until I believeContinue reading “A Meditation On Worry”

Damage/Control

April 3rd, 2019 “All art is a kind of confession, more or less oblique. All artists, if they are to survive, are forced, at last, to tell the whole story; to vomit the anguish up.” – James Baldwin Since the anniversary of Them and Us on Monday, I’ve been rereading my work. There are manyContinue reading “Damage/Control”

When Do The Bad Thoughts Stop?

March 19th, 2019 As a recovered/forever recovering person, I think the question I get asked the most is: “So when do the bad feelings and thoughts stop?” I avoid this question. But I think, in the spirit of true transparency, I should answer it, and as honestly as I can: they don’t. I still haveContinue reading “When Do The Bad Thoughts Stop?”