More Than I Deserve

August 10th, 2021 I’ve mostly learned the ways to curb, deal with or soothe those devastating feelings of crushing loneliness I get when I think about my mom. Mostly. Sometimes something said will stick in my ribs, or hurt like chewed tinfoil in my head. With those, too, I can usually use my tools toContinue reading “More Than I Deserve”

How You Remind Me

August 9th, 2021 I like everything. This isn’t true, of course. In fact, if you’ve ever played Nickelback in my presence you are well aware there are things I actively dislike. But I’m told this a lot because, generally, when people start shitting all over something, I am one of the first to try toContinue reading “How You Remind Me”

Words About Words

August 5th, 2021 I speak in metaphor. I know it’s normal for people to use things to talk about other things, but I sincerely can’t express myself without it. (Mild spoilers for Theia ahead so if you haven’t read it, like, what the heck are you even doing, get out of here and read it.)Continue reading “Words About Words”

Party On

August 2nd, 2021 Though I am sober, it is important that I party. Let me tell you P-A-R-T-why. For a long time, my life was unmanageable. “Unmanagable” is a terribly nice way to say “completely f—ed up.” I believe that it continued like that for a variety of reasons, some of them complex, but someContinue reading “Party On”

Five

August 1st, 2021 Happy 5th birthday to my baby girl, Marvel. It is stupid to say a dog is my rock, but here we are. She helps me get through things that have been really hard for me, like sobriety and the death of my mom; she sits on my lap when I’m drawing charactersContinue reading “Five”

A Query of Relativity

July 29th, 2021 To most people, a floor is a floor. It’s the bottom, the thing we stand on relative to the rest of the world, which rises above us. When we open our social media apps or just contemplate our place in the universe, we generally enter on the floor. We look up andContinue reading “A Query of Relativity”

Wake me up before you go go

July 23rd, 2021 I think that heaven can be a dangerous idea. Before I take you there, though, let’s talk about the benefits of believing in an everlasting life. At its base, the belief that life never truly ends helps appease what William James calls the “worm at the core of all our usual springsContinue reading “Wake me up before you go go”

I Want To Push You Around

July 19th, 2021 In just about 24 hours, Push comes to shove and will be released into the wild. I wanted to talk about my 7th book a little (and thank every single person who has been here since my 1st, too). I’ll see you soon at Issues Needed on July 21st starting at 5Continue reading “I Want To Push You Around”

Heartbreak Weather

July 15th, 2021 I’m still on the Old Chicago email list. For more than a few months, when I’d open one, I would feel heartbreak for what I lost. After a while, though, I would start to feel a new kind of heartbreak; I’d think of all the things I would have never experienced ifContinue reading “Heartbreak Weather”

Visible At Night

July 5th, 2021 Whenever I felt invisible, my mom used to remind me I wasn’t. That sounds stupid to say, but it’s true, and now on days when I feel invisible sometimes I worry I won’t be found by anybody. It is very easy to look up at the sky and be impressed by aContinue reading “Visible At Night”