January 23rd, 2023 I’ve had some real revelations this week on my issues with trust. Growing up, I was generally untrusting. I struggled to articulate why. I had clear reasons: bad things happened to me. Bad things happened to people I loved. People talked about bad things other people did to them or, still, otherContinue reading “Panic at the Distrust”
Tag Archives: Adulthood
Good Grief
January 10th, 2023 Well… my car got stolen today. Every time I see someone post about a hard time, I imagine what I would do in their shoes. I do it even more when I think about my sobriety; I have to ask myself, “Would I stay sober through that?” I often questioned who IContinue reading “Good Grief”
The Triumph of Never Growing Old and the Spirit of Never Giving Up
January 10th, 2023 “Dennis, Steve and I think you will be as great as Walt Disney but you need to know all the big WORDS! We hope this will help. Be creative?” – Inscription from a thesaurus I received in the early 90’s, from my Aunt Jan and Uncle Steve My obsession with Walt DisneyContinue reading “The Triumph of Never Growing Old and the Spirit of Never Giving Up”
Take A Picture
December 30th, 2022 I can’t get over this photo. It might be my favorite one of her. So, we made it? We survived another year? Survival is subjective, and not everyone makes it out alive, including the live ones. Parts of us we used to find essential rust or fade away; we discover new partsContinue reading “Take A Picture”
One Last Thing
December 24th, 2022 Tomorrow is a last thing and this time of year brings up a lot of last things. The last time she made the thing you love. The last time she laughed at one of your jokes, and you laughed at her laugh. The last time you sat next to her at theContinue reading “One Last Thing”
The Troll Toll
December 15th, 2022 The history of philosophy is a history of trolls. The 1975 is one of my favorite bands (and my absolute favorite band most days). We saw them play at The Armory last night and it was quite possibly the best show I have ever seen. Like TikTok itself, I am obsessed withContinue reading “The Troll Toll”
Eyes on the Ball
November 30th, 2022 One of the most impossible and necessary human properties we can hold is the ability to live in and appreciate any given moment. My friend Steven and I are obsessed with a television show called Westworld. This year, for its fourth season, we even found time to get together every few weeksContinue reading “Eyes on the Ball”
Grace
November 23rd, 2022 I love this time of year, because I live for times when light and dark are mutually strongest. The holidays can be f—ing tough. Talking to others around a table, especially those who see the world differently than you do, can be extremely sensitive and difficult. Kirsten Powers on Substack sent theContinue reading “Grace”
Kevin Conroy, Batman
November 14th, 2022 Kevin Conroy passed away on November 10th, 2022. For many people, he was known as the voice of Batman. For some of us, he simply was Batman. It’s odd, because last month I started a series of essays about Halloween costumes I’d worn as a kid, and what those characters meant toContinue reading “Kevin Conroy, Batman”
Could I BE More Grateful?
October 28th, 2022 Like the handful of other Americans who still sit down to watch broadcast TV live in the evening, we watched the Matthew Perry interview with Diane Sawyer tonight. I don’t think I can properly express my gratitude for him or my feelings over what he spoke about. It was mostly about addiction,Continue reading “Could I BE More Grateful?”
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