December 9th, 2021 It’s not my birthday today. But I did begin to exist in the world in a new way. I am four years sober as of right this moment. This will come as no surprise if you know how dramatic I can be, but for a long time I was waiting for theContinue reading “Fantastic Four (years sober)”
Tag Archives: Family
So Be Good
December 5th, 2021 Santa came into work today. He just showed up. He stopped by every table. He talked to every kid. He took a photo with anyone who asked. He carried sacred sleigh bells. I didn’t call him. No one did. He was there, and then he wasn’t. It was just really nice toContinue reading “So Be Good”
Taking Back Monday
November 29th, 2021 On this Cyber Monday, one of the holiest of modern shopping days, I hope you consider the little guy. The local shop. Your neighbor or your friend or your family. It’s hard to express how big it is when we make a sale, especially since it’s such an intimate thing. Whether it’sContinue reading “Taking Back Monday”
Fast [Food] But Not Fast Enough
November 27th, 2021 Now. I drive past the Burger King. I start crying. Then. I’m sitting in the fake leather booth, my hands under my bottom, feeling the cracks and the holes created from the hundreds of bottoms that have sat here before. The booth is orange or brown or both colors at the sameContinue reading “Fast [Food] But Not Fast Enough”
it sucks
November 25th, 2021 It sucks, but there is a lot to be thankful for. This is the second round of holidays without my mom, and I am so excited to share that it gets 100% easier and that, after year one, there are no struggles or bad feelings or mornings I wake up crying forContinue reading “it sucks”
I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry
November 5th, 2021 An exploration of addiction through my personal experience, evolutionary theories, and Galactus & the Silver Surfer. “I’m hungry but I’m not hungry.” Before everything, it was a feeling. By now, I’ve heard countless people say this phrase or a variation of it. Before that, I used to think it repeatedly, sayContinue reading “I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry”
The Monster
October 15th, 2021 I wrote this weeks ago, but this has been a difficult one to let go into the world. As of tomorrow, the 16th, my mom has been gone for one whole orbit around the sun. In that year, I’ve told a lot of stories about her and how I feel some daysContinue reading “The Monster”
buoy
September 17th, 2021 I was trying to describe how it can feel to open up to someone tonight and it felt oddly comforting to find the words and say them. It was about why someone who is hurting may not reach out to another person who is hurting, too, but might rather seek to speakContinue reading “buoy”
Ain’t That Some Sh
September 15th, 2021 I had to walk to school, and home from school, throughout elementary school and high school (and quite a few middle school days, too). On crisp, awakening fall days, like today, or breezy, renewing spring days, those walks contain some of my favorite memories, the kind they try to recreate in moviesContinue reading “Ain’t That Some Sh”
It Should (Not) Have Been Me
September 9th, 2021 There can be an odd guilt with grief that, if understood, can actually be a good thing. I often talk about all these tools I’ve learned as an adult, sober person, but I usually refer to them in the abstract. One of the specific tools I have to take out of theContinue reading “It Should (Not) Have Been Me”
The Den 