May 9th, 2021 For this Mother’s Day, my first without my own, I was digging through my memories, trying to think of the most touching, tasteful, darling story I could share about my mom. But that wasn’t her, not mostly. She was fun and mischievous and sometimes, delightfully, downright tasteless. This is one of thoseContinue reading “Delightfully Tasteless”
Tag Archives: Grief
The City
May 1st, 2021 Every year on my birthday, my favorite song to turn on and up (by one of my favorite bands, The 1975) is called The City. By the time I get to the pre-chorus, I find myself in the right mood. The lyrics there go: “Yeah, well, she said, ‘It’s your birthday. AreContinue reading “The City”
Life After Life
April 24th, 2021 I finished watching After Life tonight (which I had talked a little about yesterday). It’s a simple joy when, instead of learning a new lesson from something, it just reaffirms a belief you’ve known all along. One of the things that Tony learns is that sharing the life of someone he hadContinue reading “Life After Life”
The Waiting Room
April 17th, 2021 I’ve been checking in here and there during this process of loss (generating a mutual field of reflection), and I guess I was wondering if it’s okay to check in right now. Cool? Cool. On my way to work today, I realized that yesterday marked six months since my mom exited stageContinue reading “The Waiting Room”
Of a Feather
April 8th, 2021 This morning at work, I saw this bird. Well, no, I didn’t initially see it. I heard it. It was repeatedly trying to break its way into the restaurant, flying again and again against the windows and doors, which I found to be bizarre but fascinating. I took this photo and IContinue reading “Of a Feather”
Swimming in the Schadenfraude
April 1st, 2021 One of the first TV shows I remember watching with my mom was America’s Funniest Home Videos. This show became an integral part of who I am as a human being, even inspiring the first chapter of my first book, ingeniously titled “America’s Funniest Home Videos.” If you don’t know, there’s aContinue reading “Swimming in the Schadenfraude”
The Ghost of You
March 21st, 2021 I’m used to losing little things all the time. I have to let go of small stuff on a daily, sometimes hourly basis. In less than a year, I lost my job, a parent and my car. I would like to think that my practice of loss would keep me conditioned toContinue reading “The Ghost of You”
Famous Last Blurbs
March 15th, 2021 This is going to be the last substantial post I make for a while, because this is the last post that’s going to make it in the book. It’s weird because some of you will read these words on a screen and some of you will read them on paper, and thisContinue reading “Famous Last Blurbs”
Found in Space
March 9th, 2021 More and more lately, I find myself in space. I’ve been feeling the everyday plaque of stress and anxiety building up faster and more frequently; I know it’s due to a complex constellation of reasons. Not that understanding it helps. To find myself out, I have to place myself outside. Way outside.Continue reading “Found in Space”
new lights
March 4th, 2021 People like to say they appreciate good weather. In my experience, most people only remember to appreciate it when it threatens to change. Late-fall patio guests braving near-freezing temperatures. Grown men wearing short shorts in February. Anything to get just one more day in. When I was driving towards home on theContinue reading “new lights”
The Den 