March 16th, 2022 I’ve been trying to talk this idea out for a while now, but I should just try to write it down. Because I am an absolute idiot when I talk, and I am slightly less an idiot when I do not. So very slightly. There’s this oft-repeated warning about good people; it’sContinue reading “Black Like Gold”
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Everything Just Is
February 25th, 2022 There are bitter things in this world that we’d like to think have lost their taste. We are humans, look at how far we’ve come, a society that believes that we are post-what-we-used-to-be. See how we have evolved and that history has been written, the future not a reflection but a brandContinue reading “Everything Just Is”
The Song That Never Ends
February 14th, 2022 I feel like today is a good day to talk about vulnerability. Because I feel like every day is a good day to talk about vulnerability. I can’t even count the amount of people who have been reading my posts all these years and then ask me some variation of: “When isContinue reading “The Song That Never Ends”
Delusional Resolutions
January 24th, 2022 Have you ever started a day by telling yourself that this is the day you’ll get better, and at the end of it you’re not? If so, then this one’s for you. When I was a mess, I would often have conversations with future me. I would say, “Hey. It’s me. I’mContinue reading “Delusional Resolutions”
My Covid Diary
January 14th, 2022 I just made it through my CDC-recommended quarantine. I think most of the people who have had covid (and talk about it) share their physical symptoms. Because of this one-dimensional barometer, you’ll find other people minimize what it is that happens when you’re infected. By that measure, I had sniffles and coughs.Continue reading “My Covid Diary”
Nothing Around Us Changes
January 12th, 2022 Weirdly enough, I finally got covid, but that’s not what’s inspiring me to write tonight. (Presuming nothing terrible happens to me over the next few days, I’ll probably write about that later.) No, I’ve been quarantined all alone in the bedroom (with occasional visits from my doctor, who is actually my dog),Continue reading “Nothing Around Us Changes”
Fantastic Four (years sober)
December 9th, 2021 It’s not my birthday today. But I did begin to exist in the world in a new way. I am four years sober as of right this moment. This will come as no surprise if you know how dramatic I can be, but for a long time I was waiting for theContinue reading “Fantastic Four (years sober)”
I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry
November 5th, 2021 An exploration of addiction through my personal experience, evolutionary theories, and Galactus & the Silver Surfer. “I’m hungry but I’m not hungry.” Before everything, it was a feeling. By now, I’ve heard countless people say this phrase or a variation of it. Before that, I used to think it repeatedly, sayContinue reading “I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry”
The Temporal Buffet
November 1st, 2021 When you’re paying attention, even the most mundane details can illuminate personal progress. Last weekend, after a day spent doing that business-art thing, some of us went out to a Mongolian grill. I hadn’t been to one in a while, but the premise is simple: fill up a bowl of fresh andContinue reading “The Temporal Buffet”
So What
October 20th, 2021 Almost four years ago, when I started writing about things that people generally don’t talk about on the internet, it was scary. I remember laying in a hospital bed and weighing the pros and cons of sharing these pieces of myself. There was a large part of me that felt like IContinue reading “So What”
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