Subconscious Wormhole

December 3rd, 2020 May 1st, 1985. I’m born. I am my parents’ first child, as far as I know. September 16th, 2020. I get a phone call from my sister. My mom is in the hospital due to extreme stomach pain. Within a few days, we learn she has cancer. We are optimistic and readyContinue reading “Subconscious Wormhole”

L/A/Y/E/R/S

December 2nd, 2020 I like to dig deep. When I’m dead and gone, you may force yourself to read or listen to something I did to try to understand why people are calling me “a unique talent who was taken too soon.” (I don’t really know what that is or how that doesn’t describe everyContinue reading “L/A/Y/E/R/S”

Things I’ve Learned Happen After You Lose a Loved One, Part 2

November 18th, 2020 The seconds, hours, and days keep ticking by, and I keep learning new things about this new time in my life. I may as well write you a letter in the form of a sequel. Things I’ve Learned Happen After You Lose a Loved One, Part 2 – I hurt the exactContinue reading “Things I’ve Learned Happen After You Lose a Loved One, Part 2”

O, Nostalgia

November 6th, 2020 Nostalgia is a powerful thing. It can transport you through time and space. It can trap you in pocket dimensions made of moments. It builds worlds from smells and sounds and feelings you had never felt before or since. I’m the kind of person who can feel nostalgia before it happens, whileContinue reading “O, Nostalgia”

Do You (Still) Believe in Magic?

November 2nd, 2020 I chose the wrong time to peek behind the curtain. This year has been one of intense loss for many. I have to keep my face forward, because as soon as I turn my chin to look back at my own losses, it feels impossible to steer it toward the future again.Continue reading “Do You (Still) Believe in Magic?”

No Matter What

October 21st, 2020 During my high school years, at least once a week, my mom asked me if I’m gay. Spoiler alert: I’m not. But she would make sure that I was sure. And when I would reaffirm that I was not gay, despite being an absolute nerd who loved theater and musicals and dressingContinue reading “No Matter What”

Things I’ve Learned Happen When You Lose Someone Close To You

October 17th, 2020 If you’re an obituary person (which is an odd kind of person to be, but no judgement), my mom’s will be in Sunday’s edition of the Star Tribune. You can also read it online here: https://m.startribune.com/obituaries/detail/0000371633/?fullname=diane-marie-vogen I’ve been told by many people that apparently I am the type to write down words,Continue reading “Things I’ve Learned Happen When You Lose Someone Close To You”

Counterspell

October 1st, 2020 This isn’t a political post. Honest. It starts from a moment during the debate, but it’s deeply personal and I think it’s worth saying. Last night, Trump attacked Hunter Biden’s problems with addiction. Joe spoke up and said he was proud of his son for dealing with those issues. Unfortunately, Trump’s commentsContinue reading “Counterspell”

The Breakup Breakdown

September 25th, 2020 Someone at my new work asked me tonight if I missed my old work. I have been avoiding this question since March. It’s been asked in abundance and in different keys. And my response is usually an acute tweet that confirms I am fine and it was just a job. But itContinue reading “The Breakup Breakdown”

What Lasts Does Not Do So On Its Own

August 17th, 2020 As we watch relationships dissolve en masse, for a variety of valid and irrational reasons, I reflect on how they last. (It’s almost like social media has publicly revealed that maybe humans are not meant to be exposed to so many thoughts and opinions all the dang time.) When two people areContinue reading “What Lasts Does Not Do So On Its Own”