falling asleep behind the wheel

January 16th, 2021 Highway hypnosis is the phenomenon of daydreaming so profoundly that you find yourself at the destination of a journey without being able to remember how you got there. It’s called that because it usually happens behind the wheel. I never thought that my grief would sometimes manifest itself in this way. Often,Continue reading “falling asleep behind the wheel”

WAVES

January 8th, 2021 I played cribbage with my dad today. I asked him how he was doing, and the sign he did with his hand was a gentle current, like this photo of a sound wave, representing that he was in a constant state of feeling up and down. Our universe is made of vibrations;Continue reading “WAVES”

Land of the

January 6th, 2021 I’ve been real good at staying apolitical as of late, but I feel like I’ve lost a little of my punk rock attitude and we’ve all been getting along too well. So let’s get to it, friends! What is happening in Washington right now is just about as anti-American and anti-democratic (asContinue reading “Land of the”

2020: A Lesson, A Curriculum, An Education

December 31st, 2020 It is fair to say that this year sucked. It is damn fair. And it is a truth that we will have wasted our time if we decide to learn nothing from it. So, with that in mind, here is some of what I learned. – I learned not only is tomorrowContinue reading “2020: A Lesson, A Curriculum, An Education”

Screenshot

December 21st, 2020 In the social media app Snapchat, what you send disappears after it’s been opened. Like the top-secret messages that self-destruct after reading in Mission: Impossible. There is a loophole, though. You can save a screenshot of anything you can see on your phone, including in Snapchat. And that’s what my mom did.Continue reading “Screenshot”

Flip: Special Edition

December 18th, 2020 “Write drunk, edit sober.” In my twenties, I was master of the former. For a while now, though, I’ve been living by the latter. In that spirit, I wanted to revisit my second novella, Flip, with fresh eyes. I didn’t want to change the story, but I wanted to clean, clarify andContinue reading “Flip: Special Edition”

Subconscious Wormhole

December 3rd, 2020 May 1st, 1985. I’m born. I am my parents’ first child, as far as I know. September 16th, 2020. I get a phone call from my sister. My mom is in the hospital due to extreme stomach pain. Within a few days, we learn she has cancer. We are optimistic and readyContinue reading “Subconscious Wormhole”

L/A/Y/E/R/S

December 2nd, 2020 I like to dig deep. When I’m dead and gone, you may force yourself to read or listen to something I did to try to understand why people are calling me “a unique talent who was taken too soon.” (I don’t really know what that is or how that doesn’t describe everyContinue reading “L/A/Y/E/R/S”

Things I’ve Learned Happen After You Lose a Loved One, Part 2

November 18th, 2020 The seconds, hours, and days keep ticking by, and I keep learning new things about this new time in my life. I may as well write you a letter in the form of a sequel. Things I’ve Learned Happen After You Lose a Loved One, Part 2 – I hurt the exactContinue reading “Things I’ve Learned Happen After You Lose a Loved One, Part 2”

O, Nostalgia

November 6th, 2020 Nostalgia is a powerful thing. It can transport you through time and space. It can trap you in pocket dimensions made of moments. It builds worlds from smells and sounds and feelings you had never felt before or since. I’m the kind of person who can feel nostalgia before it happens, whileContinue reading “O, Nostalgia”