April 13th, 2022 I did the math. If I live as long as my mom did, I already hit middle age at 29. I think about hills. What it’s like to get to the top of one and then roll, fantastically, without fear, down the other side. It’s what I should be doing. Hands upContinue reading “Second Act”
Tag Archives: Sobriety
Kicked To Death By Rabbits
April 4th, 2022 A few years ago I did an escape room on my birthday. It was designed to look like the interior of a spaceship. I looked up photos of the room online and spent weeks getting excited for it. When we arrived and my group finally got inside, the room was tiny. IContinue reading “Kicked To Death By Rabbits”
Potholes
March 29th, 2022 This fucking pothole. Normally I would ask you to excuse my language, but then again, you don’t know this pothole. You can’t see it? I can still feel it. Week after week, I would fearfully drive past this very spot; here lived the deepest, most gnarly pothole I had ever set myContinue reading “Potholes”
This Is Me Doing My Best
March 27th, 2022 Another high-profile musician passes away; another round of the internet mob with their opinions to share. During times like these, I feel it’s important that people suffering with and recovering from addiction use their voices, and with that, I raise my hand and walk up to the front of the classroom. TheContinue reading “This Is Me Doing My Best”
Black Like Gold
March 16th, 2022 I’ve been trying to talk this idea out for a while now, but I should just try to write it down. Because I am an absolute idiot when I talk, and I am slightly less an idiot when I do not. So very slightly. There’s this oft-repeated warning about good people; it’sContinue reading “Black Like Gold”
Everything Just Is
February 25th, 2022 There are bitter things in this world that we’d like to think have lost their taste. We are humans, look at how far we’ve come, a society that believes that we are post-what-we-used-to-be. See how we have evolved and that history has been written, the future not a reflection but a brandContinue reading “Everything Just Is”
The Song That Never Ends
February 14th, 2022 I feel like today is a good day to talk about vulnerability. Because I feel like every day is a good day to talk about vulnerability. I can’t even count the amount of people who have been reading my posts all these years and then ask me some variation of: “When isContinue reading “The Song That Never Ends”
Delusional Resolutions
January 24th, 2022 Have you ever started a day by telling yourself that this is the day you’ll get better, and at the end of it you’re not? If so, then this one’s for you. When I was a mess, I would often have conversations with future me. I would say, “Hey. It’s me. I’mContinue reading “Delusional Resolutions”
Nothing Around Us Changes
January 12th, 2022 Weirdly enough, I finally got covid, but that’s not what’s inspiring me to write tonight. (Presuming nothing terrible happens to me over the next few days, I’ll probably write about that later.) No, I’ve been quarantined all alone in the bedroom (with occasional visits from my doctor, who is actually my dog),Continue reading “Nothing Around Us Changes”
Fantastic Four (years sober)
December 9th, 2021 It’s not my birthday today. But I did begin to exist in the world in a new way. I am four years sober as of right this moment. This will come as no surprise if you know how dramatic I can be, but for a long time I was waiting for theContinue reading “Fantastic Four (years sober)”
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