This Is Me Doing My Best

March 27th, 2022 Another high-profile musician passes away; another round of the internet mob with their opinions to share. During times like these, I feel it’s important that people suffering with and recovering from addiction use their voices, and with that, I raise my hand and walk up to the front of the classroom. TheContinue reading “This Is Me Doing My Best”

i made this for your fridge

March 10th, 2022 I’m a firm believer that when I have feelings while I’m creating something that it will hold those feelings and then give them to the person who experiences the art. From my personal interactions, this seems to be true. I’ve had people reach out after reading something and say, “When I gotContinue reading “i made this for your fridge”

The Song That Never Ends

February 14th, 2022 I feel like today is a good day to talk about vulnerability. Because I feel like every day is a good day to talk about vulnerability. I can’t even count the amount of people who have been reading my posts all these years and then ask me some variation of: “When isContinue reading “The Song That Never Ends”

Bottomless Refills

February 11, 2022 I’m on empty. This emptiness is nothing new. Regular readers (hi, there!) will know that I’m the type who believes in using whatever tools work. It’s why I’m always trying to understand others, especially those who are not the same as me. Feeling empty, as least from a Western standpoint, is widelyContinue reading “Bottomless Refills”

Delusional Resolutions

January 24th, 2022 Have you ever started a day by telling yourself that this is the day you’ll get better, and at the end of it you’re not? If so, then this one’s for you. When I was a mess, I would often have conversations with future me. I would say, “Hey. It’s me. I’mContinue reading “Delusional Resolutions”

My Covid Diary

January 14th, 2022 I just made it through my CDC-recommended quarantine. I think most of the people who have had covid (and talk about it) share their physical symptoms. Because of this one-dimensional barometer, you’ll find other people minimize what it is that happens when you’re infected. By that measure, I had sniffles and coughs.Continue reading “My Covid Diary”

Fantastic Four (years sober)

December 9th, 2021 It’s not my birthday today. But I did begin to exist in the world in a new way. I am four years sober as of right this moment. This will come as no surprise if you know how dramatic I can be, but for a long time I was waiting for theContinue reading “Fantastic Four (years sober)”

it sucks

November 25th, 2021 It sucks, but there is a lot to be thankful for. This is the second round of holidays without my mom, and I am so excited to share that it gets 100% easier and that, after year one, there are no struggles or bad feelings or mornings I wake up crying forContinue reading “it sucks”

I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry

November 5th, 2021 An exploration of addiction through my personal experience, evolutionary theories, and Galactus & the Silver Surfer.   “I’m hungry but I’m not hungry.” Before everything, it was a feeling. By now, I’ve heard countless people say this phrase or a variation of it. Before that, I used to think it repeatedly, sayContinue reading “I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry”

The Loop

November 3rd, 2021 Do you ever feel like you’re in a loop? ?pool a ni er’uoy ekil leef reve uoy oD I hear it a lot. “Every day feels the same.” When a TV show lasts a long time, it tends to turn off viewers for a variety of reasons. Yet, somehow, people are usuallyContinue reading “The Loop”