The Song That Never Ends

February 14th, 2022 I feel like today is a good day to talk about vulnerability. Because I feel like every day is a good day to talk about vulnerability. I can’t even count the amount of people who have been reading my posts all these years and then ask me some variation of: “When isContinue reading “The Song That Never Ends”

Bottomless Refills

February 11, 2022 I’m on empty. This emptiness is nothing new. Regular readers (hi, there!) will know that I’m the type who believes in using whatever tools work. It’s why I’m always trying to understand others, especially those who are not the same as me. Feeling empty, as least from a Western standpoint, is widelyContinue reading “Bottomless Refills”

A Ton of Feathers

January 28th, 2022 When people leave you, they leave the things you can’t ask them, too. Sometimes those mysteries are big and heavy and revelatory. Sometimes they’re not. But they take up space in your mind just the same. I saw a lady in a coat today, in the parking lot before we opened ourContinue reading “A Ton of Feathers”

Fantastic Four (years sober)

December 9th, 2021 It’s not my birthday today. But I did begin to exist in the world in a new way. I am four years sober as of right this moment. This will come as no surprise if you know how dramatic I can be, but for a long time I was waiting for theContinue reading “Fantastic Four (years sober)”

it sucks

November 25th, 2021 It sucks, but there is a lot to be thankful for. This is the second round of holidays without my mom, and I am so excited to share that it gets 100% easier and that, after year one, there are no struggles or bad feelings or mornings I wake up crying forContinue reading “it sucks”

Polaris

November 22nd, 2021 Sometimes I think I’m making a mistake. I’ve written a lot about how I think the world would be a much better place if everybody was more honest, in real life and on the internet here. I actively encourage it. But there’s the ugly side of that. There’s the moments that revealContinue reading “Polaris”

Nothing so Big

November 19th, 2021 There are days when we go through something that seems bigger than we can keep holding up. On those days, the small things can feel less than trivial. The mundane details of our normal lives are smears, becoming blurs along the tunnel vision we get looking at the massive, inescapable thing. IContinue reading “Nothing so Big”

I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry

November 5th, 2021 An exploration of addiction through my personal experience, evolutionary theories, and Galactus & the Silver Surfer.   “I’m hungry but I’m not hungry.” Before everything, it was a feeling. By now, I’ve heard countless people say this phrase or a variation of it. Before that, I used to think it repeatedly, sayContinue reading “I’m Hungry But I’m Not Hungry”

The Temporal Buffet

November 1st, 2021 When you’re paying attention, even the most mundane details can illuminate personal progress. Last weekend, after a day spent doing that business-art thing, some of us went out to a Mongolian grill. I hadn’t been to one in a while, but the premise is simple: fill up a bowl of fresh andContinue reading “The Temporal Buffet”

So What

October 20th, 2021 Almost four years ago, when I started writing about things that people generally don’t talk about on the internet, it was scary. I remember laying in a hospital bed and weighing the pros and cons of sharing these pieces of myself. There was a large part of me that felt like IContinue reading “So What”